I did really well and then I started eating pizza and chocolate...now Im going to consume only liquids for 3 days to make up for it

I would really just like to be thin once before I am thirty. I have never worn a cute black cocktail dress to a party, never gone clubbing, never taken a beach vacation - all because I was so severely overweight. Now I am so *close* I can almost taste it.

I was recently diagnosed with a hormone imbalance which makes it very difficult for my body to gain weight. Despite all this, I developed an eating disorder and obsession with losing weight. Now that my hormone imbalance is going to be corrected, I'm going to gain a ton of weight. If I was obsessed with losing weight when I was thin, what's going to happen when I gain ten pounds? I'm going to go effing crazy!