all i want is a cute and decent irishman !

my life is a mess. not just with men but in every possible way. i am totally broken and i have no idea how to put myself back together. counselling is bs been there done that. antidepressants bs, been there done that. i am a complete failure.

I can't lie, my blood rushes when I get a text from him in the wee late hours...even when it IS just something g-rated. I wonder if he knows how worked up he still gets me after all this time...? Just one more night between the sheets with him is all I want. Mmmm...

I'm saving anal until I'm married. A girl has to save SOMETHING for her husband.

Just caught up with The Office finale. Bawling and in tears. The show has been an incredible gift.

One of the (more normal) guys I've been chatting w/ on POF called me 7 hours after I gave him my number. This a good start, I hope.

I don't want kids, I don't like alcohol, and I don't have cats. I do not fall into a stereotype. Nice try on all counts. Now kindly f*ck off, k?

Kids are not handbags. Get a friggin' stuffed animal and call it a day if you don't want to actually parent them and let them run around like monkeys on crack! We know we don't want the responsibility. Why don't people actually give this more thought?! Seriously!!!

I don't know if I want him in my life even as a friend. I have to say, the last couple weeks have been nice, being totally disconnected from his drama...but man, we were seriously great for each other on a professional level, though. I hate the thought of holding a grudge, but I really don't have a desire to be friends with him anymore. What to do, what to do...?

WHY do men just drop off the face of the earth? How can they go from calling every day, texting, etc., etc. and then completely disappear? No. I'm asking - WHY??