I'm in love with my dad's former paramedic student...

Rules of the road according to the 46 year old dude who messaged me on OKC: 1) you should be attracted to me even though I'm 20 years older than you, fat, and have kids 2) if you are not attracted to me, you must be a shallow b*tch 3) you will die alone. Dying alone seems to be a really really good choice these days.

I will never forgive you if you forget about that special getaway we have planned for this weekend. I've been waiting so long.

OP here of POF. First meet up went well! We had drinks at a bar. He seemed to match his profile with looks, personality and everything. There was chemistry and he was easy to talk to, funny, and sweet. Basically he seemed completely normal. Color me shocked.

I can't date anyone because I don't trust them enough, I tell to one boy, even though I'm dating another. I don't want to be with my boyfriend, and I don't know what I'm going to do with my life soon. I feel like giving up on everything because I have no one to rely on. I have no purpose anymore because I don't even know it myself. I keep hurting and confusing others including myself and I just want it all to end because it's going nowhere.

I want to get past this grudge, I do. I'm trying, but talking to her isn't helping. I share in so much of her pain when it comes to you.

It's funny...these women I know post numerous pictures of themselves on facebook or talk about themselves incessantly, and all their friends are like "oh, you're so beautiful!" "You're so hot" even if they look like crap! Guys never do that. It's like these women need constant reassurance or attention or something.

I think the perfect set up would be to live next door to my BF. That way we can both have our own separate places, but come and go much more conveniently.

Signed up for PoF today. Got some creepy messages. "Are your parents bakers cuz you are a cutie pie" "Give me an idea how I could convince you to go out for a cup of coffee with me." Really? Do you want a pie in your face? What about a cup of no? Cheesy lines may work on some people, but I am not one of them. I want them to be REAL by chatting rather than attempting to impress me.

I am devastated. I can't even begin to describe what happenened. I don't know where to begin...Really. Just, devastated. Where do I start? I need to ''talk'' so badly, and I need advice. In the next post? Tomorrow? Please help me... please.