I would never cheat but I find myself having frequent fantasies of having an emotional affair. I don't need sex. I want to go on a date, hold hands in public, cuddle while watching tv or a movie, kiss and not just a short peck I would give my mother. I want to snuggle up and fall asleep in his arms. I guess what I really want is the man he used to be. I wish I knew what happened to us and how to get it back.