DH told me today that he won't be home for leave until September; he's been deployed since November but because he was attached to Rear D and deployed later than his unit, he got the short end of the stick when it came to choosing his leave date. It really sucks. We were hoping he would be here in June and now instead of waiting three more months, I have to wait six more. It's moments like these that I really hate the Army.

Craziest sex places: The hood of my dad's Mustang, DH's Jeep, on top of my parents' dining room table (which I now own), the bathroom of one of my parents' friends, a balcony and our first apartment complex's swimming pool with other people in the pool.

Okay, so this is one I've kept to myself for a long time. When my oldest DS was born, DH deployed six weeks after he arrived and I had nobody else around to help me. I'm pretty sure I had postpartum depression. DS had a hard time with eating, projectile spitting up and throwing up a lot. It was really hard and sometimes, I would get upset and handle him roughly, drop him down onto his boppy on the couch or pick him up roughly. I still feel so horrible about that. No one knows how bad it really was either.

My best friend had her baby yesterday!! A baby boy with dark curly hair--I'm so happy for her and her husband!! I got to be in the delivery room; it was definitely an eye opener to be on that side of a delivery, lol. He's so beautiful and I already love him so much!!

My current celebrity crush is Joel McHale. There's just something so sexy about a guy with a great sense of humor.

DH comes home in 11 days!!! I'm getting so excited, I can hardly contain myself. I just want this next week to speed up; it feels like it's going by agonizingly slow.

I love redheads. They're so sexy. DH is a redhead and he's so hot.

DH is in Germany and me and our two boys are still in the states, waiting until we can join him (he's in the Army). One of my favorite things to do is to watch him on Skype as he falls sleep and play soft music for him from my Itunes playlist, which he listens to on his headphones. Makes me feel closer to him.

Claiming that watching your kids being born turned you off sexually from your wife is such a cop out. My husband watched me give birth to both of our boys and our sex life is actually better now than it was before we had kids. If you really love your wife and have sexual chemistry, watching her give birth isn't going to change that.

I'm not a step-mom so I won't even pretend to understand how hard that must be and I commend all of the step-moms out there who actually make the effort to make it work with their step-kids. And of course, like any of us, you're entitled to vent. That being said, I really don't like the step-moms who call their step-kids nasty names or who don't like having to "share" their husbands with them. It's one thing to get out your frustrations, it's another to just be mean and immature about it. They're kids and they're having to adjust to a situation they never asked for.

After having a huge meltdown with DH on skype, I've finally decided to do something about my depression. It feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. It felt a little weird though, admitting that I can't do this on my own anymore and that it's okay. First thing tomorrow, I'm making an appointment with my doctor. Here's to hoping that I can finally start being the wife and mother I used to be.