Had the urge to cut myself tonight for the first time in a really long time. DH left to go back to Afghanistan on Friday to finish up the last five months of his deployment and I was really depressed. Luckily my best friend called and after talking to her for over an hour, I feel so much better. Thank you BF; you have no idea how much talking to you tonight meant.

My best friend just found out she's having a boy!! I'm super excited except.....they're naming him Jason, spelled Jaysen. *face palm*

Found out this morning that one of my best friends decided to end our five year friendship, claiming she was done with the drama.Tthe only drama was the drama created by her. I'm hurt, especially when I think of how much I gave to help her through a lot of hard things, but on the other hand it's kind of nice not to worry about it anymore.

DS 4 is going to be starting preschool in the fall for the first time. I'm super nervous. He's really smart but hasn't been around very many kids his own age so I'm worried about how he'll do socially. He has a younger brother but that's not the same and I'm afraid he won't know how to behave around kids his own age.

My best friend is staying with me and she's almost six months pregnant. Last night, DS 4 was giving her a hug and kiss good night and asked if he could give the baby a kiss good night. She said yes and so he kissed her belly and said "Good night baby." Then he put both of his hands on her belly, leaned really close to it and said "Baby I want to be your friend." It was the sweetest thing ever.

I really hate the term "WoW widow". It's so insulting to actual widows. I have a friend who was eight months pregnant with her and her DH's first child when he died of cancer. I'm sure she would give anything to have her DH in the next room, playing WoW. She's a real widow and having a spouse who plays WoW all the time doesn't make you one.

Just found out today that DH won't be home on leave from his deployment until September. He's been gone since November because he got sent to Germany and then deployed from there. We were hoping he could take leave in June. Now we have to wait an extra three months and instead of having three months to get through, I have six. It really sucks.