My husband is coming home soon. He will meet his 6 month old kid for the first time. I handled everything here myself (having kid, taking care of house, etc). And I'm feeling really angry lately. My period starts soon, maybe its pms. But my thoughts of suicide and anger have gotten to me a little. I'm not going to take anything out on the kid. But I catch myself thinking that I want to blow my brains out or that I don't want to see my husband at all. This has been going on for the past week since I got my paraguard inserted, but there aren't any hormones. This is confusing.

The Army kicked him out 6 months ago. The meds he's taking for the PTSD are kind of working but the anger is out of control. The littlest thing can turn him into a screaming lunatic. I feel like there is no one to turn to anymore.

There are times when I look at my husband and I feel a urge of anger and just wanna punch his lights out..but I love him deeply.

My husband has PTSD and has been violent. He's went to counseling and anger management truly wants to change. I have stuck by him through this because I know he loves me with everything he is and is just broken...but I will not have a child with him until I know that it's not going to happen again. I'm willing to risk damaging my own life, but I will not put another human being, especially my own future child, in that situation. I love my future child too much to do that to him/her.

I don't even recognize myself anymore. The anger and violence is now running my life and I spend my days just trying to keep him from blowing up. We've already lost so much because of it all. I just don't want to give up.

My husband has anger issues. Actually he has issues period. Down to the point of him saying shit that he didn't get when he was a kid! My kids and I deal with this. everyone else just things he is so calm and i'm mean and aggressive. This has self control with the rest of the world. Why not at home and with those whom are most important. He gets it from his mother and it almost makes me not want to like her for it. She said its ok for her to be this way as a woman,but that he is a man. Easier said then done! His mom fucked him up!when do i stop being there for him through this?

I love my husband. He's not the same man I married anymore. I have to get used to the anger and violence that now exists and the medications that are now a permanent part of his life. We will get through this and there are much bigger and better things in store for us. We just need to get through this time. I love him. We're both hurting and struggling. I need to remember all of this and keep fighting the good fight.

I've been helping my husband organize his paperwork from the last 5 years. I came across his divorce papers, and some old bank statements. She filed for divorce while he was overseas, he was so ready to be done with her, he just signed at the dotted line. I don't think half of what was done was legal, and I believe he was taken advantage of, and his bank account totally drained with her writing checks to herself. I don't think pointing any of this out to him would be productive, and would only anger him. No since in opening an old wound right?

I dont think I'm able to forgive. How do I forgive? Maybe I dont have it in me???I've prayed, went to counseling but the anger and hurt still there. I dont want to torture myself yet some days I wonder why didnt I just leave. I dont depend on him financially but I also dont want my marriage to fail. He's done all I asked but I still resent him for what he's done I want to pack up and leave.

newish to this base and my son was invited to a birthday party but now its being hinted that he doesnt need to come/univited - apparently the mom didnt know hubby is an 06 and now feels weird about it. our sons best friend's dad is a E3 and the other (my godson) is a general so WHO CARES, let kids be kids and play!! anger and tears, i cant decide which right now