We live several hours away from family and while we went home for T-Day, we opted not to make the drive again for Christmas and stay home since his training schedule is NUTS right now. It was the least stressful Christmas I can remember and we both loved it. I just wish the family would stop with the guilt trips. It's one holiday.

I'm so depressed, and I'm stressed over this deployment and Christmas. And I'm crazy nervous to marry into this life. I have no idea what to expect. AND the worst thing is, I have no one to talk about it with...I don't do weakness well, but I'm feeling pretty weak right now.

I love how we're stuck at this non-military duty station with no active duty support facilities. No commissary, no PX, no MTF and no COLA. Top it off now I'm pregnant, have always had high risk pregnancies and multiple losses. There are no TriCare providers within 50 miles, the one they did refer me to isn't accepting OB patients. I am beyond stressed out and trying to find someone to see me and hopefully they won't charge a fortune. Thanks Army, for screwing us so completely.

One of my best friends is working 2 jobs to support himself, his new girlfriend, and her three year old. She works too, but still asks him for money every week. We had coffee last week, and he told me how they have no money and how stressful it is. Her facebook statuses everyday go like this "I hate christmas, it sucks having to decide bewteen feeding your kid or getting him presents this year"... blah blah blah. She just got a giant new tattoo. Fuck you ding dong, stop taking advantage of my friend. Your kid deserves better and you suck as a mom.

Ugh, I know I have said it before and I will say it again moving home near extended family, was NOT the best decision I ever made. I am reminded why SO MUCH during the holidays. But I am gonna let all that stress go, and hang out with my kids and enjoyed MY family during this break!

went to the DR today to have an ultrasound. it seems like everything is good! the nurse was so nice and explained everything to me and the DR came in and talked to me after... whew. FH i am thankful you made me go. it relieved a lot of unnecessary stress. ILY.

DH got home little over a month ago from 1 yr. deployment. When he got back our sex life was of course, awesome. Since he has went back to work, it has pretty much become not having any. What makes me wonder is while he works we have no sex all week, it was like this before he left. We have sex like Sat or Sun thats it. He isn't stressed about work. He tells me that. He just says he doesn't know why we don't have sex during the week. Before we moved to this base we had sex 5 times a week. I am starting to wonder if I have something to worry about...

There is a lot of stuff going on in our lives besides my husband's homecoming. The kids and I are thrilled we're getting our husband and father back, but I feel really stressed about doing the regular everyday things along with school, and preparing for homecoming, Christmas, and a drive to see family over the holidays.

so my neighbor sent her kids over here.She knows that I am sick and stressed. Hope she does not think I am feeding them. she is at home with her husband and his friends. fml

I swear I have the most worthless lazy husband everrrrr! We are PCSing right after Xmas and was hoping to be out of here on our way to the new duty station before the new year. But my husbands dumb ass hasnt been to his brief yet to get his orders. So we cant get orders for him to clear or even get moved out of our apartment yet until probably 10 days before his report date!! Really! 10 days to drive our stuff 1500 miles and find a place to live. Thanks DH for stressing me out when you have to act like a baby who needs your momma to hold your hand through everything and tell you what to d